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i would do just about anything to distract myself from studying right now. what is wrong with me? i cant concentrate on anything for longer than 2 seconds. tomorrow morning i have to recite shakespeare to dr. darrell, "letter perfect and with perfect tone and pace." and i have about 5 lines memorized. i suck! i hate dr. darrell.

so since im so bored and i dont feel like studying, im going to ramble about absolutely nothing.

last night im pretty sure there was a brown recluse in my room, which is a poisonous spider found down here in southern indiana.



brown recluse


and there is a picture of it for your personal enjoyment. i cant even look at this picture without hyperventilating. im pretty sure this was the same kind of spider that was in my room. it was not cool. i didnt want to smoosh it because im incapable of doing that, so i got a can of lysol and sprayed it until it ran away, into the hall and underneath the closet door. then i continued to spray underneath the crack of the door for about 10 minutes until the can was nearly empty. i really hope i poisoned it. or at least drowned it. i just hope it's not extra angry now and now it's going to come attack me in my sleep. im so scared.

i refuse to walk barefoot anywhere in my apartment now. i wear my big wooden sandals from american eagle that look like desert-walker shoes. i chose these shoes as my spider-safe shoes because i dont think the spider would be able to penetrate through all that wood with it's fangs. i look like a dutch clown with those things on around here, but i dont care dammit! i cant wait to get out of this crappy apartment and into our new one in copper creek!!! only 6 more days!!

ok so maybe i dont have as much to talk about right now as i originally thought. i hope it doesnt storm tonight because i really need to run. but i think it's going to. darn it.

"No. You dont get to tell me what to do...ever again."

hmm. not much to talk about i suppose. i havent been up to anything very exciting. but is that surprising?? living alone thoroughly BLOWS. i miss katie. :( i miss our talks at 3 a.m. when neither one of us can sleep and we just sit around and talk about stupid things. and i miss spying on randy with her..and listening to avery and his girlfriend fight next door by putting our ears to the wall with cups. haha. i wish this summer would go by faster!!!

ummm. the diet is over. i quit. is that surprising?? no. it just got so old and so impossible! it's really hard to live your life for long without carbs! i missed my bread! it's no fun eating a sandwich with no bread. cuz that's just like...eating lunch meat. and fat free lunch meat at that. no thank you! i guess since im running, ive been informed that its not healthy to run a lot and not have carbs in your system, because your body feeds off the carbs. so i was probably doing more damage than good anyway. and im still running everyday. well except saturday i didnt run cuz i went out. and tonight i dont THINK im going to run.....unless i get done with my homework quickly and feel like going. we'll see.

ya, i found a new route. friday night i went out down st. joes and around the golf course. i went at like 2 in the morning..and im pretty sure i was the only college kid out at that time that WASNT drunk. not too smart of me, i dont think, to run on a friday night down a semi-busy street at 2 in the morning with a bunch of drunk guys out. haha. wasnt very pleasant. i dont think i'll go that way on a weekend again. i'll stick to the seclusion of a side street.

anyways, enough rambling from me. i have a lot of stupid homework to do. goodnight!

Owwwww

yesterday was an eventful day i suppose. stupid class, then came home and watched the last samurai which was ok, but overrated i think. randy came down somewhere in the middle of that movie and had to use my computer. i had to type another paper for him..which took ummmm forever.

then went out to dinner with the boys for keith's bday, came home and couldnt concentrate on my studies so i decided to run first. ya and i changed my route yet AGAIN. i've been told over and over how dangerous it is to run down Golfmoor road alone at night, so last night i was kind of feeling weird about it...so i decided to drive through it once to make sure no one was lurking in the trees ready to strike.

well it's a good thing i did that, because parked in front of the pond were 3 pick-up trucks with guys sitting in them. just sitting there. uhhhh ya that would have freaked me out if i had come across THAT while running...since it's absolutely pitch black back there.

so i just ran up and down harmony way instead. started out at golfmoor and harmony way and ran down to some auto repair shop i have no idea where i was. then back again. not nearly as pretty as golfmoor road...but safer i admit.

and i do believe i have a serious problem going on with my feet and ankles. the tops of my feet are bruised, and my ankles are swollen, and my ankle bones are just one big bruise. owwwwww. and my arches are constantly hurting and tingling. im in pain. randy says i should fill my sink up with ice and stick my feet in there. but i think he forgot that im NOT 6'9 like him....i think that would be kind of difficult for me.

so i'll have to find another way. i guess i need new shoes, but i dont have money for that. so i'll just suffer i guess. i hope i dont permanently damage myself!

well...i was going to take a nap but i dont think i feel like it anymore. i need to get some stuff done....and then rent Shrek for Randy....ya...Randy and Shrek dont seem like they would mix very well, but he wants it.

Blaaaah

not much of an interesting day. woke up kind of late, which seems to be turning into a regular thing. for some reason i dont hear my alarm anymore. it kind of becomes incorporated into my dream...in the form of a car horn or someone blowing a whistle or something. then when i finally wake up, it's about 20 minutes to 10, and i have to leave by quarter to....so let's just say i dont look very cute in the morning...EVER.

anyways, went to class..got out about 10 minutes early cuz we got through the stupid green knight a little quicker than expected. i usually go to the library after class to read, but i didnt feel like it today....which could be dangerous. i need to make sure i stick to my routine and dont start slacking off, which usually happens every semester. im determined to get an A and shove it right in Dr. Darrell's face.

so i came home...cooked some lunch..read a little Chaucer which sucks....didnt finish it which is not cool because we are discussing it tomorrow. :( then i was exhausted and layed down for a little while, ended up falling asleep while watching Willy Wonka..good thing i woke up on my own because i had to work at 5!

so i went to work at 5, got home around 12:30. i wasnt going to run tonight because my feet were hurting and i was just feeling blah...so i put on my pajamas. and then i was sitting here thinking and i realized that if i DIDNT run tonight, i would end up feeling guilty about it later. so i got changed again and went out at about 1 a.m. to run. found a new place by the way. no more scary burdette. although this new way is much much darker. i go from Helfrich park middle school down Golfmoor road up to Harmony way. tonight i did 2 laps...about 2 miles.

my ankles are so swollen right now i can barely walk on them. they hurt really bad. i think i have bad shoes. also, my shins are starting to bruise...which shouldnt be a surprise to me, since i believe i am the easiest person in the world to bruise.

missed american idol tonight. dang. i wish i had a vcr so i could have taped it! oh well. i hope diana did well!

not much else to say...happy bday keith! that is all! goodnight!

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New room+ No Randy upstairs= More sleep for Linda

Nothing terribly exciting to report. let's do a rundown of my day. better yet, let's start with last night: (tuesday night)

so i know now for a fact that i am physically and mentally incapable of falling asleep before 4 a.m. i dont know what it is. i dont nap during the day. i wake up around quarter to 9, or 9 o'clock. so why am i not tired at a decent hour? i dont know. right now, my body is tired. my eyes are a little tired. but my brain is wide awake! well i've digressed. that is beside the point.

so last night im laying in bed trying to fall asleep. its about 3:30'ish. im just starting to drift off into a nice little dream, and all of a sudden.....RANDY comes home. leave it to randy to screw it all up for me! i mean, i love the kid, but living underneath his bedroom is pure hell.

so he comes home. i know this, because he stomps around his room and the floors squeak and groan and it sounds like a 400 pound man is up there walking around. and then he turns on his music. of course. he does this every night. and its freakin loud and annoying. because of course it's rap, and of course the bass is allllll the way up. so all i hear is the faint sound of someone rapping, and then a very loud buuuuum bum bum. buuuuuum bum bum. buuuuuum bum bum. buuuuuuum bum bum. OVER and OVER and OVER and OVER. i dont know if anyone out there has ever lived underneath someone who listens to their music very loudly until about 5 a.m., but let me tell you its annoying as hell. and impossible to sleep to.

and then he starts dropping stuff on the floor. and stomping. and dropping.

so i decide to sleep in katie's room.

so i yank all the covers and bedding off my bed and go into katie's old room and set up my bed. then of course i have to bring my little pink lamp for some light in there because there are no overhead lights. and then i have to bring in my alarm clock to wake up in the morning....so i end up bringing in a lot of stuff.

so this is why tonight i decided i should just move my entire room into katie's old room. never again will i have to complain about randy and his music. or randy and his...walking. because now im living underneath SCOTT. please scott, dont own a stereo or walk....well he is a much smaller guy so i dont think the floors will squeak.

ok so basically today i woke up (late), went to my wonderful class with dr. darrell, went to the library to read for a couple hours..came home, cooked some lunch, went to work from 3-9, came home, vacuumed, moved my room into katie's, went and ran at burdette, talked to katie online for the first time since she left...i miss her!!!, and now here i sit. i have a quiz tomorrow in class so i should study now. oh and i rented Igby Goes Down tonight. but i guess i'll have to watch it tomorrow. i wont have time tonight. man, the perks of working at a video store! im such a movie geek and now i get free rentals! i love it!!!!

well, goodnight!!!

Running.....and I LIKE it?????

Yes, I've changed the template of my blog AGAIN. i do love pink, and i was very excited to have a pink blog, but i must admit that template was very boring. this one is just so much more fun. if it were pink, that would be extra cool. i guess i could somehow figure out how to make it pink if i could figure out all those codes and stuff, but im not that big of a computer geek.

i just want to start out by saying that this is day number 5 of my diet/exercise plan and i am now down 5 pounds. looks like the trend is a pound a day. now all i have to do is quit drinking pop, i think that is hurting me.

ANYWAYS. tonight when i went out to the river to run, there were waaaaay too many people down there. like families and stuff walking their dogs, and old people walking and stuff. i think it's because i went earlier than usual tonight. so i decided to drive out to Burdette Park and run instead.

Now, for those of you who do not live in Evansville, Burdette Park is kinda like a Lemon Lake type deal, but a little smaller i think. a little more park, a little less nature. and it's incredibly dark at night. i pulled into the park and followed one of the many roads and ended up parking by the tennis courts.

now, i've only been to burdette park once before, with katie, and we did not venture out into the trails or anything. i had no idea where i was and i was the only person there. and it was pitch black. im not the kind of girl that scares easily, and i really dont have common sense so it never really occurred to me before i started running that i shouldnt run through the woods alone at night. but it DID occur to me AFTER i started running.

so im running up one of the little black paved paths through the trees, and i suddenly realize that im running on this path completely alone, in the dark, with trees on both sides of me. this is where the texas chainsaw massacre/sleepaway camp/friday the 13th movie clips start playing in my head. Enter the sound of ducks squawking which sounds like a chainsaw, and you've got one scared girl. i was surprised by my fear. im kind of known amongst my friends as the girl that does not get scared. and i was scared.

it didnt help that along the way, there were these creepy little log cabins on the sides of the road that were dark and very Blair Witch-like. and then when i ran past them, the echo of my footsteps made it sound like someone was knocking on the door or something.

and then, when i was ready to go back to my car, i got lost. dont ask me how. im dumb. but i couldnt find my car. i swear i tried every path and every road in the park and none of them led to my car. so then i started to panic. what if i was stuck out here all night because i was too stupid to figure out how to get back to my car??? to make matters worse, i saw a man walking in the distance. true, he was probably doing some exercising just like me, but when you're alone in a wooded area in the dark and you swear you're in some bad, trippy dream and Freddy Kreuger has hidden your car...you begin to panic.

well after much swearing and running through grass and up and down hills to find different paths, i found my car. so i guess Freddy DIDNT hide it from me.

although i was creeped out the entire time, i think im going to run at burdette from now on instead of the river. being scared helped me to keep going, because i didnt want to stop in the trees. some may say it's unsafe to run there alone at night, but honestly, what kind of person is actually going to camp out in the woods at burdette park waiting for the chance that some girl might ACTUALLY come running through one night. not very likely.

so yes, burdette park it is. im so excited. and can it be true that i actually ENJOY running???? yes, yes i do. linda likes running. when did this happen? i dont know. but i hope it doesnt stop!

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Linda needs therapy.

i know i've discussed my issues with bugs before....but i really need to say again that i seriously think i have a problem.

i was about to go to bed, and noticed an earwig crawling on my wall above my computer. my heart stopped immediately. i stood there for about 5 minutes, just watching it crawl.....and stop...and crawl around some more...and stop. i didnt know what to do. normally, i would ask katie to kill it for me. but she was out tonight.

this left me with a dilemma. i could just not kill the bug (my preference), but that would leave me sleeping in a room with a bug in it. knowing there's a bug crawling on my wall would seriously freak me out and leave me anxious and unable to sleep. i just know i'd be thinking about how far along the wall he's gotten, and whether or not he's near me. ewwww.

i thought perhaps i could just sleep in the living room and therefore avoid the bug all together...but that would leave me with the problem of knowing there's a bug lurking in my room somewhere the following day. plus, i'd have to find somewhere to plug in my alarm clock...and the couches suck.

so...that leaves me with the choice of killing the bug......which i just DONT do. i cant even step on bugs on purpose. it seriously makes me hyperventilate. so.....i stood there for the longest time just thinking about what to do. how should i kill it?? i certainly couldnt squish it with toilet paper. that would mean i'd have to put my hand near it. and the thought of having any part of my body anywhere near a bug nearly gives me a heart attack. (you think im joking, but my heart is still racing from this experience.)

so i cant squish it with toilet paper. this leaves me with the option of hurling an object at the bug. this presents a problem because what if the object misses the bug? (i have really bad aim due to my total lack of athletic ability.) then, i would have a live and angry bug falling to the floor and probably crawling straight to me, so it can run up my body and into my hair..........(these are honestly the things i think of).

so now i know i need to squish the bug with something that offers a little more accuracy than throwing something at it, and a little more safety than actually placing my hand ON the bug. so about 15 minutes later.....i decide to go with the flip flop. an old pink flip flop that's dirty and i dont wear anymore.

with the whole shoe thing, at least i can stand a good distance away, and i dont actually have to use my hand to kill it....i can just hold the very edge of the shoe and sort of swing it....there will be no physical contact with the bug.

so...i walk up toward the wall. my heart is pounding so hard i can hear it. i swing the shoe. and immediately run to the other side of the room. im breathing heavily. im scared to death. and i MISSED the bug.

so i walk up to it again. swing again. miss again. (ya, apparantly my lack of athletic ability extends to the art of hitting something with a shoe).

after much running back and forth across the room and after many many failed attempts to hit the bug......i finally got it. it landed on my green shelf that i have above my computer (IKEA).

what would any other normal person do next in this situation? (but i think we've established this whole thing isnt normal). they would probably pick up the bug with tissue and throw it away. not me.

as soon as the bug fell dead, i ran out of my room, into the living room, through my front door, and out the door of my apartment building. i then threw the shoe into the parking lot, shook my arm a little bit to make sure i had no bug remains on me, then returned to my room to make sure the bug was still dead.

it was. and now here i sit. i cant bring myself to pick up the dead bug or even wipe it away with something, cuz that would mean semi-touching it. and i just cant do that. this experience nearly killed me as it is. so im going to wait until tomorrow, maybe katie will get rid of it for me. she understands my bug problem.

so.......now you've seen an example of my psycho-ness. i swear it's just with bugs though!! im really a normal person! i just dont understand it at all. i seriously cant breathe when i have to kill a bug. i need therapy. like......for real. i need therapy. i cant imagine if i were on one of those shows where you have to do stunts or something and i had to sit in a tub full of bugs or let bugs crawl on me.....oh my god. it would kill me. it would seriously seriously KILL me.

well now that i've shared how completely insane i am.....time for bed. big day tomorrow. not looking forward to it. blaaaah... goodnight!

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good news! i found out that my vacuum cleaner was NOT stolen by reggie. yay!! i happened to run into the one and only "J black" today, and he informed me that HE has it. apparently reggie gave it to him before he moved out. i suppose J was planning on just keeping it.....but im glad he is being honest and giving it back to me!! this totally made my day!!!

i dont really feel like writing today. my brain just isnt working. i really really really need to start writing my ethnic lit paper and putting together my portfolio for multi-cultural ed. they're both due tuesday and i havent started either!!! gosh why am i such a procrastinator?? i dont know dammit.