Crimson and clover......over and over

whew! tonight ended up being quite frightening! for those of you in evansville, you know about the weather we just had. i had no idea it was coming. it just happened. i was about to walk out the front door, and all of a sudden the power goes out, it gets so windy i think the trees are gonna snap in half, and the rain is blowing like a freakin monsoon!

so i just kind of stand there in my apartment. it's pitch black. i dont have any candles because i packed today to move and practically everything i own is in my car in bags. i dont have a flashlight. what's a girl to do??? i stood there debating what to do, all the while wondering if there was a tornado coming that i didnt know about. then it hit me. but of course!! the shower radio!!!

so i felt my way to the bathroom and found my handy dandy shower radio (which i knew would come in handy one day). it's not JUST for showers. i sat on my living room couch and listened to the radio. it was quite creepy. i looooove storms to death, but being alone in one without electricity is B-O-R-I-N-G. so needless to say, i was a very happy girl when Randy and Shnoz came knocking on my door. (I sound mean when i call her Shnoz, but i can never remember her name. and she honestly has a huge nose. so that's just what katie and i call her. but not to her face of course)

ok, so it was pitch black when i opened my door after he knocked, and i couldnt see who was there when i opened it, but i just knew it would be randy. and then i heard his big voice say "oooh girl, you be trippin. i knew you be trippin." hahaha. ohhh randy. i'll miss that kid when i move tuesday.

so randy and shnoz came in and kept me company for a little while. he brought down a candle. we were going to tell ghost stories, but none of us could think of any. and then randy had to scare me and tell me that we might not get our electricity back until tomorrow. and that would not be cool since tomorrow is my birthday!!

anyways, they left to go to her mom's house since she had electricity. (he left his candle by the way. i just might have to steal that thing. it's multi-layerd and multi-scented. score!) and i decided to lay down on the couch and listen to the storm. i must have been exhausted because i dont even recall falling asleep. when i opened my eyes, the lights were on, i heard Aileen's voice coming from my bedroom (yes, beth, i rented the other Aileen documentary tonight), and about 2 hours had passed.

and now here i am. im going to watch the movies i rented. in less than an hour i will officially be 21 and of legal drinking age. and i will officially have nothing to look forward to anymore. so i am officially bummed. oh well. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Just give me bed

i am soooo exhausted. i worked almost 11 hours today.... and im pretty sure i broke my nose. beth thinks that is funny and that i couldnt have possibly broken it, but we agree that it is injured. she told me it looks bigger. it also has some mild bruising and it hurts to touch it.
im not even going to get INTO the rest of the night, because that will just make me aaaaaangry.

so im moving on tuesday and i still havent packed. gotta work tomorrow til 5, so perhaps i'll pack after that. i know i wont get anything done on monday, cuz that's my birthday. which maybe im not as excited about anymore, because i just realized tonight that after my birthday, i will have nothing to look forward to. what am i going to count down to now? uhhhhhhhh.......nothing. what will i have to look forward to??class....work......more class? that sucks.

kind of a short blog. but i need to go to bed. like now.

Away from the sun again....

i kinda started to go through all my stuff to start packing today, but i got bored. so i quit. maybe later i'll try again. i dont have any boxes though so im just going to put everything in trash bags. my mom informed me that she's coming bright and early on tuesday. thank God for matt and keith, who seem to be all into the whole helping people move thing. things should go a lot quicker that way. oh, but i still wont have a couch or table for the livingroom. so i'm going to be living all japanese-like for a while...or is it chinese? i dont know. whichever one it is where they sit on the floor and stuff.

i skipped my class this morning. i wish i hadnt. i think im gonna get in trouble now. dr. darrell does not take absences well. but i was absolutely exhausted and deprived of sleep. and i was having such a good dream, i didnt want to wake up! oh and today when i came home, my face was itching, so i went to scratch it, and i felt something on my hand. I looked down.....and what do you think was on it???

uhhhhhh YA. a freakin SPIDER. a SPIDER was on my face. how does that happen exactly????? did it like jump onto my face off a wall or something? all i did was walk from my car into my apartment. now....i think i've stressed enough how incredibly phobic i am of bugs. let's just say i screamed at the top of my lungs and randy thought i was being murdered. he actually came downstairs to make sure i was alive. then i had him kill the spider for me. it was the most traumatic experience of my entire life, im pretty sure. well maybe the second or third most traumatic.

well i could ramble on forever. i wont do that to you. i think im gonna do some laundry now. perhaps do some packing. perhaps not. im definitely gonna run later...havent been able to go the past 2 days. although when i run it feels like my shins and ankles are being obliterated with a sledge hammer. it kind of feels like in the movie "Misery"...when Kathy Bates breaks that guy's legs. kinda like that. but i cant afford new shoes. so i'll just suffer.

uhhhh

uhhhhh ya. im moving into the new apartment on tuesday. i just realized tonight that this leaves me with TOMORROW to pack. i have to work saturday and sunday, monday is my birthday, and tuesday im moving. sooo i guess i have a lot to do tomorrow. :/ this sucks. i dont even have any boxes. all my stuff is all over the place. i have A LOT of work to do.

ummmm cant wait for my birthday...


and now, some things that make me happy:

-knowing you have people that are always there for you despite the past
-realizing how great of friends you have
-rekindled relationships (friendships...)
-Carb-smart fudge bars (only 3 grams of carbs)
-getting an A on Dr. Darrells midterm (yes, yes i did)
-thunderstorms (but not when they interfere with American Idol...or running)


and the not so cool things:

-living alone
-being poor and in debt
-Bethy quitting Hollywood soon(and just about everyone else)
-Erica moving to L.A.
-Chrissy being unable to come down next weekend





and now i'll probably watch Eurotrip and do some reading. well actually i probably wont do that reading part. haha.

Randomness

not much to say...i was irritated tonight because FOX wasnt working and i didnt get to see American Idol. that just might ruin my week. and i wont get to see the finale tomorrow either cuz i have to work. booooo.

i really hate when stupid people who you've told you dont want to associate with anymore decide to just come slithering back in uninvited. uhhhhh i hate you. get over it.

im stressed. i dont even want to talk about it because i'll just get stressed more. so let's talk about some positive things.

my birthday is coming up. and that is a VERY positive thing...mainly for 2 reasons:

1. i will no longer be the friend who "ruins" it for everyone else...(i.e. 'We can't go there...Linda isn't 21.')

2. i will finally be able to get a new license...and i will no longer be laughed at because of the lame-o picture that i took at 16.


im also so excited about the new apartment. i know i've discussed this multiple times before...but for real, it will be soooo nice to get a change of scenery and a new atmosphere. it will be so refreshing!! it's going to be so great to get out of this ghetto-fabulous apartment in golden towers.


i have my midterm tomorrow...and i've studied a total of about ummmmm 30 minutes for it. i cant concentrate and im so tired today all i want to do is go to sleep. i think im going to go to bed early. im really nervous about the test, but i cant even stay awake right now.....

Feeling all inspired and whatnot

ok, so i just read emily's blog, and it totally made me cheer up. thank you emily. it just made me realize there are so many things in life to smile about, and i complain way too much! for real, life is good. i dont care what is happening or how bad things suck...it's good anyway! and thank you emily for pointing that out. and im so happy my laugh can brighten your day...because most people find it annoying. hahaha.

so being all inspired and such, i decided to make my very own list of things that just plain make me happy, or can turn a bad day around:


emily's laugh. true, i cant hear it on IM, but i can imagine it. especially since we grew up together and were best friends for so long, i can actually imagine what kind of laugh she is doing at what time.

pepsi

days where i dont have to go out in public and therefore dont have to blowdry my hair. (because, lets face it girls, blowdrying your hair is just about the most annoying thing we have to do. and if i dont blowdry my hair, it turns all 80's wavy on me.)

the color pink

looking at pictures of my niece

laughing with my sister

conan o'brien....i can just look at him and it makes me laugh

getting random electronic greeting cards from people you havent talked to in a long time :)

comfy nightgowns

being absolutely fed up with randy's noise upstairs...but loving the kid anyway cuz he would do just about anything for me and kate!



well..i suppose i should hit the sack. i gotta recite some stuff tomorrow. im nervous about it cuz just when i think i have it memorized, i take a break and then when i go back to it, i forgot it...and it has to be perfect. yikes. hopefully it will go ok. goodnight!!!!

ADD

i would do just about anything to distract myself from studying right now. what is wrong with me? i cant concentrate on anything for longer than 2 seconds. tomorrow morning i have to recite shakespeare to dr. darrell, "letter perfect and with perfect tone and pace." and i have about 5 lines memorized. i suck! i hate dr. darrell.

so since im so bored and i dont feel like studying, im going to ramble about absolutely nothing.

last night im pretty sure there was a brown recluse in my room, which is a poisonous spider found down here in southern indiana.



brown recluse


and there is a picture of it for your personal enjoyment. i cant even look at this picture without hyperventilating. im pretty sure this was the same kind of spider that was in my room. it was not cool. i didnt want to smoosh it because im incapable of doing that, so i got a can of lysol and sprayed it until it ran away, into the hall and underneath the closet door. then i continued to spray underneath the crack of the door for about 10 minutes until the can was nearly empty. i really hope i poisoned it. or at least drowned it. i just hope it's not extra angry now and now it's going to come attack me in my sleep. im so scared.

i refuse to walk barefoot anywhere in my apartment now. i wear my big wooden sandals from american eagle that look like desert-walker shoes. i chose these shoes as my spider-safe shoes because i dont think the spider would be able to penetrate through all that wood with it's fangs. i look like a dutch clown with those things on around here, but i dont care dammit! i cant wait to get out of this crappy apartment and into our new one in copper creek!!! only 6 more days!!

ok so maybe i dont have as much to talk about right now as i originally thought. i hope it doesnt storm tonight because i really need to run. but i think it's going to. darn it.

"No. You dont get to tell me what to do...ever again."

hmm. not much to talk about i suppose. i havent been up to anything very exciting. but is that surprising?? living alone thoroughly BLOWS. i miss katie. :( i miss our talks at 3 a.m. when neither one of us can sleep and we just sit around and talk about stupid things. and i miss spying on randy with her..and listening to avery and his girlfriend fight next door by putting our ears to the wall with cups. haha. i wish this summer would go by faster!!!

ummm. the diet is over. i quit. is that surprising?? no. it just got so old and so impossible! it's really hard to live your life for long without carbs! i missed my bread! it's no fun eating a sandwich with no bread. cuz that's just like...eating lunch meat. and fat free lunch meat at that. no thank you! i guess since im running, ive been informed that its not healthy to run a lot and not have carbs in your system, because your body feeds off the carbs. so i was probably doing more damage than good anyway. and im still running everyday. well except saturday i didnt run cuz i went out. and tonight i dont THINK im going to run.....unless i get done with my homework quickly and feel like going. we'll see.

ya, i found a new route. friday night i went out down st. joes and around the golf course. i went at like 2 in the morning..and im pretty sure i was the only college kid out at that time that WASNT drunk. not too smart of me, i dont think, to run on a friday night down a semi-busy street at 2 in the morning with a bunch of drunk guys out. haha. wasnt very pleasant. i dont think i'll go that way on a weekend again. i'll stick to the seclusion of a side street.

anyways, enough rambling from me. i have a lot of stupid homework to do. goodnight!

Owwwww

yesterday was an eventful day i suppose. stupid class, then came home and watched the last samurai which was ok, but overrated i think. randy came down somewhere in the middle of that movie and had to use my computer. i had to type another paper for him..which took ummmm forever.

then went out to dinner with the boys for keith's bday, came home and couldnt concentrate on my studies so i decided to run first. ya and i changed my route yet AGAIN. i've been told over and over how dangerous it is to run down Golfmoor road alone at night, so last night i was kind of feeling weird about it...so i decided to drive through it once to make sure no one was lurking in the trees ready to strike.

well it's a good thing i did that, because parked in front of the pond were 3 pick-up trucks with guys sitting in them. just sitting there. uhhhh ya that would have freaked me out if i had come across THAT while running...since it's absolutely pitch black back there.

so i just ran up and down harmony way instead. started out at golfmoor and harmony way and ran down to some auto repair shop i have no idea where i was. then back again. not nearly as pretty as golfmoor road...but safer i admit.

and i do believe i have a serious problem going on with my feet and ankles. the tops of my feet are bruised, and my ankles are swollen, and my ankle bones are just one big bruise. owwwwww. and my arches are constantly hurting and tingling. im in pain. randy says i should fill my sink up with ice and stick my feet in there. but i think he forgot that im NOT 6'9 like him....i think that would be kind of difficult for me.

so i'll have to find another way. i guess i need new shoes, but i dont have money for that. so i'll just suffer i guess. i hope i dont permanently damage myself!

well...i was going to take a nap but i dont think i feel like it anymore. i need to get some stuff done....and then rent Shrek for Randy....ya...Randy and Shrek dont seem like they would mix very well, but he wants it.

Blaaaah

not much of an interesting day. woke up kind of late, which seems to be turning into a regular thing. for some reason i dont hear my alarm anymore. it kind of becomes incorporated into my dream...in the form of a car horn or someone blowing a whistle or something. then when i finally wake up, it's about 20 minutes to 10, and i have to leave by quarter to....so let's just say i dont look very cute in the morning...EVER.

anyways, went to class..got out about 10 minutes early cuz we got through the stupid green knight a little quicker than expected. i usually go to the library after class to read, but i didnt feel like it today....which could be dangerous. i need to make sure i stick to my routine and dont start slacking off, which usually happens every semester. im determined to get an A and shove it right in Dr. Darrell's face.

so i came home...cooked some lunch..read a little Chaucer which sucks....didnt finish it which is not cool because we are discussing it tomorrow. :( then i was exhausted and layed down for a little while, ended up falling asleep while watching Willy Wonka..good thing i woke up on my own because i had to work at 5!

so i went to work at 5, got home around 12:30. i wasnt going to run tonight because my feet were hurting and i was just feeling blah...so i put on my pajamas. and then i was sitting here thinking and i realized that if i DIDNT run tonight, i would end up feeling guilty about it later. so i got changed again and went out at about 1 a.m. to run. found a new place by the way. no more scary burdette. although this new way is much much darker. i go from Helfrich park middle school down Golfmoor road up to Harmony way. tonight i did 2 laps...about 2 miles.

my ankles are so swollen right now i can barely walk on them. they hurt really bad. i think i have bad shoes. also, my shins are starting to bruise...which shouldnt be a surprise to me, since i believe i am the easiest person in the world to bruise.

missed american idol tonight. dang. i wish i had a vcr so i could have taped it! oh well. i hope diana did well!

not much else to say...happy bday keith! that is all! goodnight!